Mom's Story

HAPPY DEATHDAY
(9/19/06)


what
do you get
for the woman
who no longer
needs anything?

dead
six years ago
today

Mom's ashes
now mixed
with flower bed earth
hopefully nourishing
the azaleas

a juniper bush

that shelter her
through the days
and nights
of her
non-existence

how
do you mark
such an
occasion?

remembering
her last few weeks
I still feel a mix
of relief
along with the guilt
of not enough said
and not enough
done

I thank her
today
as I do every day
for the life
that she gave me
and hope that
she would approve
of the way
which
I live it

and
at 7:10 am
I stopped for a moment
and thought
of the last breath
that she took
as I laid her
upon the couch
that morning

no
death rattle
or ghostly murmur
could be heard

only
the silence

and finally
for her

some peace