Poemdog

Dogs 2020

A Personal History?
(9/4/2020)


“you’ve been
to some interesting
places

you’ve done
some interesting
things

why
don’t you write
about them?

have it
published?”

what they
want
is some sort
of pretty
collection
of paragraphs

a heavily
sanitized

extremely
diluted version
of my past

they don’t
really
want to hear
about the obsession
for that next
drink

the full-feature
drunken adventures
as they happened

products
of distorted
thought

barely
remembered
in context

and now
since
I’ve sobered

the travel

the petty
crimes

the madness
in motion
has subsided

they don’t
really
want to hear
about my present
stasis
of apparent
normality

so I
write instead
of my current
private
insanity

as it
quite often
overcomes
me

asocial rants
in this
isolation
of self

a personal
mystery

hardly suited
for
publication