Poemdog

Dogs 2020

A Careless Life
(5/13/2020)


an insolent
indifference

she said

an indolent
disinterest

she was
enjoying
this

an apathetic
attitude
to the extreme

yes

yes

and yes

I couldn’t
argue

I wouldn’t
argue

I really
didn’t
care

about
her

about
anything

the presumed
pose
is not
a practiced
emotional
emptiness

I’ve lacked
those feelings
since childhood

so I lean
toward
the genetic

I just couldn’t
really see
why everyone
got so excited

I tried
to mimic them
in order
to belong

but my act
always came
across
as insincere

a fake
in what
I felt to be
a fake
society

at least
when I was
still a drunk
I actually believed
my manufactured
histrionics

I have
too little
time left now
to be anything
but honest
about my
nature

so I stared
at her
in silence

perfectly
projecting
my level
of concern

she
left

of course