Dogs 2020


A Careless Life(5/13/2020)
an insolent
indifference
she said
an indolent
disinterest
she was
enjoying
this
an apathetic
attitude
to the extreme
yes
yes
and yes
I couldn’t
argue
I wouldn’t
argue
I really
didn’t
care
about
her
about
anything
the presumed
pose
is not
a practiced
emotional
emptiness
I’ve lacked
those feelings
since childhood
so I lean
toward
the genetic
I just couldn’t
really see
why everyone
got so excited
I tried
to mimic them
in order
to belong
but my act
always came
across
as insincere
a fake
in what
I felt to be
a fake
society
at least
when I was
still a drunk
I actually believed
my manufactured
histrionics
I have
too little
time left now
to be anything
but honest
about my
nature
so I stared
at her
in silence
perfectly
projecting
my level
of concern
she
left
of course