Poemdog

Dogs 2019

ILL WILL
(4/20/19)


I am
sick

I am
none
too happy
about
that

I am
not a
bad
patient

I am
a hostile
patient

somebody
gave this
to me

fuck
them

I hope
that they
die
from this

I motor
on

work

errands

etc.

anger
gives me
the energy
to keep
moving

even
though
I feel
like shit

certainly
not any worse
than those
killer hangovers
of the past

they
did not stop
me

neither
will this

I hear that
athletes
suffering
from sickness

minor ailments

actually
perform better

distracted
from over
thinking
every move

focused
more upon
the basics
just to get
by

I understand
that

I do
what needs
to be
done

directly

in straight
lines

no strength
to wander

no strength
to wonder

eventually
I will
get better

you may
even
see me
smile again
soon

but until
then

stay out
of my
way

I am
looking for
someone

and you
do not
want to be
them