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Dogs 2019

ACCIDENTAL DROWNING
(7/11/19)


of course
it's an
accident

either
that
or suicide

just
drowning
will be
a sufficient
definition
in my case

perhaps
a stupidity
drowning

walking
too close
to the stormy
surf

I was happy
to have
the beach
to myself

until
that large swell
broke
to my knees

great

I thought

now my
shoes
are soaked

then
as the water
rushed away
I lost my
footing

fell

now
I'm completely
wet

I realized

idiot

I assumed
that I'd get
stuck
in the sand
eventually

the surf
would wash
over me

then I'd
be able
to return
upright

to walk
soggily
back
to my car

but I was
pulled
to a point
to where
I could no long
feel
the earth
beneath me

then
the panic
hit

I began
paddling

but
to no avail

I was still
getting
farther
from land
no matter
how hard
I thrashed
on the surface

by the time
that I thought
to just
stand up

I could
no longer
feel
the bottom
with my
feet

that was 10
minutes
ago

now
I'm exhausted

I know that
I will not
be able
to swim
my way
home

I float
the best
that I can
but I am
slowly
sinking

I relax

give in

billions
of creatures
are at home
in the sea

that's
comforting

either
you be
them

or you
feed
them