Poemdog

Dogs 2019

BAD BEGGING TIME
(6/3/19)


fucking
fuel system

I try
to fill
the tank
of my
car

but the
gas nozzle
kicks off
way before
I can reach
any automatic
setting

so I have
to trickle
the liquid
manually
down the spout
at an extremely
slow rate

taking
5 times
as long

frustrating

irritating

as I was
adjusting
my grip
this morning
he came around
fast
from the
to the other
side
of the pump

"excuse me
sir

but my wife
and I
need some gas
for our truck

can you
help?"

I don't
even look up

say a word

shaking
my head
more at the
at the disaster
in my hand
than at him

he walks
away

finally
I get the flow
set
and scan
around

I see
the vehicle

bed full
to the top
of the cab
with worldly
belongings

somehow
strapped together
with every sort
of makeshift
tie down

I feel
bad

however
not so much
to stop
what I'm doing
in order
to chase him
down

to donate
to his
cause

charity
is not unknown
to me

but is a
quality
very tied
to chance

to convenience

you have
to make it
fairly easy
for me
to care