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Dogs 2018

RESIDUAL REMISSION
(12/31/18)


I awake
to the stink
of something
that smells
like burning
coffee

I remember
the doctor
saying

"odd odors
may be a sign
of the tumor
returning"

so I am
really hoping
that something
is actually
burning

but since
I'm the only
one here

and it's
3am

the chances
seem slim

while
I lie
here

thinking
about
getting up
to investigate

I awake
from my
dream

with still
a foul vestige
in my
nostrils

I get up

walk through
the house
toward
the kitchen

the smell
lessening
with every
step

I turn on
the kitchen
light

no beverage
burning

the odor
as much
a fantasy
as the cancer

my nose
now clear

my worries
gone

I return
to bed

wishing
that the more
pleasant
of dreaming
sensations

would linger
just as long