Poemdog

Dogs 2018

DYSFUNCTIONAL OLDIE
(11/12/18)


a song
came on
the radio today
reminding me
of younger
days

I haven't
heard it
in years

perhaps
decades

the first
time
was late teens

maybe
early 20s

I had
no idea
what to do
with my life
then

no direction
seemed
to make
sense

other
than to drink
to excess

at least
I was temporarily
relieved
from those
big questions
of existence

and the results
of my overindulgence
were usually
of the more
immediate
variety

surviving
hangovers

overcoming
social

legal
consequences

they kept me
busy

distracted

until suddenly
the middle portion
of life
had passed me
by

now
almost 60

I listen
to that music
again

still
with no idea
of what
to do

hanging on
from day
to day
hoping
for a clue

waiting

until
the only thing
left
will be the
death
that I miraculously
avoided
in my youth

no lessons
learned

none
to give

other than
to change
the station