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Dogs 2018

DISPELLING THE PAST
(2/18/18)

I remember
being
a few hours
late
to visit my
step grandmother
many years
ago

"that's OK

I just assumed
that you were
in a bar
somewhere"

I had
been sober
almost 5 years
at the time

hard to break
almost 25 years
of memory
patterns

I made
the 450 mile
trip
to see her
every year

even though
the rest
of my side
of the family
had ceased contact
with her
due to some
perceived slights
in relative
dealings

I travelled
the distance
one more time
for her funeral

there
I overheard

"he only
came to see her
so often
to make sure
that she'd
remember him
in her will

I heard
that he may
have been involved
in the theft
of some items
from her
estate"

I had
been sober
for over 13
years
by that time

even drunk
those were
depravities

crimes

that I would've
never
considered

I was always
"cash register honest"
as they say
in the program

apparently
the only way
that my
moral status
can change
is by the death
of everyone
who remembers
the drinking me

I only
hope
that I can
outlast
them