Poemdog

Dogs 2018

CONTACT NIGHTMARE
(4/14/18)

he's drunk

after 20 years
of sobriety

he tells me
that he wants
help

I tell him
that he has
to stop drinking
for a day
first

he can't
do that

he says

I watch him
walk wobbly
into his
apartment

that night
I dream of
parties

bars

clubs

not actually
drinking
but being back
in all the same
old places

in nothing
but a t shirt
and boxers

no keys

no wallet

I leave
the last club
wondering

as so many
times
in the past

what
will become
of me

I awaken

in a strange
bed

cluttered
with curios

knickknacks

I look about

seem to be
in some retro
resale store

someone
apparently
has taken pity
upon me

let me
stay here

or possibly
I broke in
after walking by
on the street

unsure
of my circumstance
I resignedly try
to return
to sleep

I awaken
again

this time
in my own
bed

escaped
from some dream
within
a dream

very disturbed

but very
relieved

I get up

get ready
for work

18 years
sober

worried
that this reality
could fade
all too soon
as well