Poemdog

Dogs 2018

CLEAN AND NO HER
(6/8/18)

I knew
from a young
age

none
of the usual
social stimuli
applied
to me

fame

power

money

peopled gatherings
of any kind

all this
stuff
was not
enough

but when
I began
to drink

to drug

I noticed
that life's
standard features
began
to make sense

began
to look like
things
desirable

however
after a time
they no longer
desired
me

I ended
a drunken
outcast

so I got
sober

became
a good citizen
again

but also
rediscovered
the dearth
of meaning
for me
in this modern
existence

so I
detached

disassociated

isolated
as I tried
to create a world
for myself
in which
I could sanely
function

a world
in which
no one else
socially sane
would want
to share

now my
friends

my family

wonder
why I can't
find a nice
woman

settle
down

they see
me
as incomplete

instead
of completely
alone

with the
absolute