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Dogs 2017

MILITANTLY ABSTINTENT
(4/4/17)

I am
an alcoholic

my life
was saved
through Alcoholics
Anonymous

I no longer
attend meetings
however

the reason
was not
so much
the frustration
in dealing with drunk
after drunk
who just
could
not
"get it"

my impatience
is in dealing
with those recovered
who still
would not
get their shit
together

"oh well

at least
I'm not drinking
today!"

is not
an excuse

it is
a pathetic
admission

that the isms
that ran a life
throughout years
of inebriation
are still
in control

always
late

rarely
following
through

adrift
without
purpose

and they
wonder why
no one yet
fully trusts
them

even
with all
of their
sobriety

setting
a low bar
for those
who follow

I wonder
at this
resentment
of mine

resentments

as they
are wont
to say

will cause
us
to pick up
that next
drink

but I feel
as if
I've picked up
a cause
instead

a personal
purpose
on the other
side
of AA

still
sober

still
out there



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