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Dogs 2017

ETERNAL ITCH
(9/3/17)

the concept
is difficult
for a non
alcoholic

a non
addict

to understand

the energy
expended

the intensity
involved

in pursuing
that next
drink

that next
high

with a certain
manic

purposeful

slovenly efficiency

is all
consuming

a finely focused
drive
that does not
dissipate
once
we are sober

clean

we are
simply forced
to find some other
diet
for our "sickness"
to consume

the alcohol

the drugs

were always
secondary
to our true
twisted
motivations

we are continually
staring askew
for alternatives
to this standard
daily existence

the normal
that we are implored
to attain

the reality
that seems only
a bad stage
play

contrived

fake

full of lies

inconsistencies

that are lauded
by the majority
as admirable

achievable

if we are
pure
in intent

you know
what bullshit
that is

but your
drug of choice
is deception

the acceptance
of deception

since
any other world
is just too difficult
to accept

sometimes
you have to
throw up
on your shoes
a few times

for your
eyes
to finally
clear