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Dogs 2017

ALONE BY ATTRITION
(9/14/17)

"if that's
the way
you feel

why do you
even want to be
in a relationship?"

valid question

she's very
perceptive

for a first
date

I really
don't know

to have someone
keep an eye on me
in these declining
years?

to have someone
drive me
to colonoscopies?

to have someone
discover the corpse
before decomposition
sets in?

maybe
I should just hire
a nurse

a caretaker

a janitor

I don't need
a woman

though something
buried deep
in my psyche
tells me
that I should
want one

I see
other couples

pairs
seem to be
the norm

the dynamic
seems
a good idea

on the
surface

but I know
that I would regret
the loss
of solitude

singly
is the only way
that I feel
I belong

I should
just gut up

accept
the fact
that I'll die
by myself

after hours

perhaps days

of physical
suffering
due to some
illness

some accident

there are
worse ways
to go

like being
surrounded
by loved ones

looking down
at you

not a damned
thing
that they
can do

but block
the light