Poemdog

Dogs 2016

THE FIRST
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it's
your birthday
today

if you
remember
me at all
you are
probably sure
that I've forgotten
that

25 years
is certainly
a long time

I do
still wonder
about you

about
your life

wonder
if we would
recognize
each other
if we passed
on the street

in a store

wonder
if you would
still rush away
in fear
as you did
the last time
that you saw
me

I was
embarrassingly
horrible
to you

I was
me

I still
am

but I now
know the me
to suppress

the me
to hide

I would like
to see you
one last time

maybe
from across
a room

from across
a parking lot

watch your
eyes
meet mine

see your
face aglow
with a smile

instead
of darkened
with panic

that
would be
enough

after all
the other

after all
these years

just
to be able
to nod back
in acknowledgement

to turn
away

to disappear
forever
in the memory
of your love