Dogs 2015

CHRONOLOGICAL CONUNDRUM
(9/15/15)


I remember
opening
the same door

sitting
at this same
desk

yesterday

last week

last month

last year

ten years
ago

all
the days
seem
the same

over
a decade
and a half
gone

cycling
through a similar
routine

and except
for a few
vacations

a few relationships

a marriage

a divorce

a limited
diversion
of disease

there have
been
very few
variations
on the theme

life in
freefall

knowing
the result

reaching
some terminal
velocity
of apathy

I'm not
sure
what else
I should be doing
with my time
here

if I had
any great
passion
I would pursue
it

but I'm
content
to breathe

to exist
within
this miracle
of life

with a minimal
amount
of pain

either experienced
or caused

simple desires

a sellout
perhaps

but
when I see
the outcome
of ambition

the suffering
experienced
along the way

both personal
and collateral

I wonder
at the process

that's me

wondering
until end

doing
very little

I'll let others
wonder
at my wasted
opportunities

they
do not
concern
me