Dogs 2015

CALENDAR OF DREAD
(5/29/15)


we spend
our days
looking ahead
to events
that we would rather
avoid

as soon
as one
bothersome chore
is completed

another
arises
in the near
distance

they seem
tiny stair steps
of death

some
going up
in struggle

some
going down
in easy
decline

all leading
toward the same
eventual fate

we try
to remember
when we looked
forward
to an event
in a positive
manner

childhood
hopes

teenage
desires

then back there
somewhere
the amusement
ride
of adulthood
took over

life
became
a waiting game
for that next
sinking feeling
in the stomach

now
we go to bed
each night
ticking off the tasks
needing to be done
the following
day

an attitude
of despair

perhaps

but at least
at this moment
we know there
is nothing
but now

and the nows
have never
worried us

respites
of time
to revel
in the absence
of tomorrow