Dogs 2014

THEY'RE RIGHT
(6/9/14)


I'm glad
that she's
gone

I really
am

our marriage
was wrong
from the beginning

I knew
that

but she
was young

(at least
much younger
than I)

good looking

smart

funny

why wouldn't
I
marry her?

by year
two
I had a legion
of answers
to that question

they look
at her
and can't believe
that I'm not
more upset
at her leaving

"it's
going to hit
you
one day

you're
really
going to miss
her"

I narrow
my eyes
a bit
but detect
no sarcasm
in their predictions

that's OK

they really
don't' know her
well enough
to intelligently make
those declarations

but
in a way
I know
that they're right

I'll miss
holding
her hand
through an eminent
boob reconstruction
when her old
implants
finally
give out

I'll miss
holding
her hand

her hot
sweaty hand

through
menopause

I'll miss
holding
her hand
through her son's
long overdue
departure
from her immediate
life

through her parents'
funerals

through all
the disease
disasters
and death
that I was more
than willing
to aid
and comfort her
through
in the future

I'm off
the hook

I will
only
have to deal
with my own
disease
disasters
and death

on my own

all alone

as all
of us
eventually
have to handle
those things

many of us
however
naively believe
that having someone
nearby
can actually alleviate
some of that
pain

it does
not

it cannot

"he acts
all calm
and blasé
but one day
he really
will
miss her"

in so
many ways
I already
do