Dogs 2014

THE BIG LIE
(6/11/14)


it
doesn't matter
to me

really
it doesn't

smile

laugh

pat yourself
on the back

believe
all the bullshit
that you've been
eating
each day
since you began
to toe the line
as a child

you know
that you're
a success

that you're
having fun

that you are
somebody

since you do

or have

or want

so many
of the things
that you see
on TV

on billboards

on your
smart phone

that's great

I'm happy
for you

but please
do not be
upset with me
when I refuse
to buy in
to the grand scam
that is
the history
of humanity

these things
are important
to you
because someone
decided

      out
      of the fucking blue
      so long ago

      or just now

that they
should be important
to you

most of them
are not real

and I do
think
that deep
down
in the chasm
that must
be your soul
that you really
know
that truth
somehow

I see
the doubt
at times
cross
your countenance

but shortly
the imbecilic light
returns
to your face
and you're back
online

in the store

shopping again

I'm glad
that you have
another's purpose
to direct
your life

I know
how important
that is
for you

again
do not chastise
me
because I refuse
to accept
their fantasies

or yours

unfurrow
your brow

unpurse
your lips

brighten
once more
to the endless
possibilities
of their projected
prevarications

I'll continue
to sulk

to overanalyze

to search
for alternatives

but on
the day
that I die
I'll know

with certainty

that none
of my efforts
were wasted

and I shall
finally
be able to laugh
on my own

about you

about it all