Dogs 2014

SPRING FEEBLE
(4/17/14)


I dread
the season

give me
the extremes
of the solstices

give me
the slow death
of the autumnal
equinox

I hate
the happy
faces
of the hibernators

it's Spring!

it's Spring!

they'll
exclaim

pointing out
the buds

the blossoms

the greening
lawns

all it means
to me
is allergies

insects

lawn mowing

these
are the reasons
that I lived
in dark bars
during
these months
of emergence

drinking
away the greens
for almost
a quarter
of a century

lamenting
the easy blues
of the rest
of the year

April and May
are when I'm
most
at odds
with my surroundings

with my
fellow humans

I was
not made
for the easy
times

or at least
not
for the easy times
of others

fuck
their smiles
and laughter

all that
I want
to do
is sleep

but there's
a mosquito
worrying me
in the darkness