Dogs 2014

SKULLBOUND
(6/7/14)


I feel
as if
my head
is full
of lead

all thoughts
encased
within the inescapable
dullness
inherent
in such metal

my neck
barely able
to support
the weight

why?

I am
well rested

well fed

well exercised

but still
I plod
through an otherwise
bright and cheery
morning

I no longer
have drugs
or alcohol
to blame

the brain
chemicals
seem simply
not
to be in alignment
today

I know
that I must
ride out
the sensation

this too
will pass

but
some quick
fix
would certainly
be welcomed

my stomach already
hyper acidized
by too much
coffee
I turn
to water
in order to cleanse
the system

leach out
the contaminates
with a purified
liquid

flush
the badness
out
with the urine

although
presently
I have to sit
in order
to pee

the heaviness
just too much
to bear
to stand
in front
of the urinal

what
a sorry
state

I look
down
at my shoes
for signs
of life

wiggle
my toes

leaning
ever farther
forward

toward relief

toward death