Dogs 2014

RAIN OUTSIDE AND IN
(10/11/14)


thunder

the preceding
lightning
I presume

eyes
and blinds
closed
I have no
experiential
proof

I should
get up

go to
work

even though
it's Saturday

and I'll be
the only one

no one else
will know

or care

if I am
there
or not

I think
of other tasks
that I need
to complete
this weekend

none thrill
me
to the least

since
the divorce
the nebulous
they
tell me
repeatedly

to get out

to go do
something

but if
there's really
nowhere

nothing

that appeals
to me

for whom
would I be
going to

doing

these places
and things?

sounds too
much
like my marriage

so many
destinations

so many
objects

not of
my choosing

when
does it stop?

all of this
going
and doing
for others?

my preferences
today
are nowhere

nothing

if I could
just find
nobody
to judge
my inactivity

maybe
I'd finally
be somewhere

something

alone