Dogs 2014

ONE MILLION MONKEYS
(6/15/14)


so many
words

so many
efforts

and still
I haven't written
one thing
to save
my own ass

I would
think
that after
several years
and many hundreds
of attempts
that by accident
I would have
put something
down
of meaning

at least
of meaning
to me

but I tend
to document
only
the swirling debris
around a personal
event horizon
without ever penetrating
the darkened source
of my own
collapse

this sickness
seemingly compels me
to capture
the everyday
clutter
of my existence

but
somewhere
deep
in the recesses
from which light
cannot escape
I know
that a truth
lurks

a truth
that will either
deliver
or destroy

so I shall
continue
to speed along
this wormhole
of solitude
until I reach
some conclusion

or until
all
of this frenetic
motion
finally
stops

and I see
myself
lying there

in a relative
state
of rest

finally
resigned
to my
ignorance