Dogs 2014

NO REDEEMING VALUE
(7/10/14)


I've done
my time

I've work
the steps

and I
do feel
some major degree
of rebirth

but back
out
in the World
they all seem
to see me
much
the same

I'm simply
a dysfunctional
photograph
that time
has abandoned

I reach out
a hand of greeting
and receive
a flinch
of fear
in return

it's hard
to blame
them

almost two
and a half decades
of drinking

drugging

lying

petty theft

character assassination

would make
anyone wary
even 15 years
later

they say
that they see
a change

but I know
that they don't
really
believe it

even new
acquaintances

others
in recovery

seem
to sense something
askance
about me

I avoid
them all
now

living
in a remade
world
of isolation

quite sober
but still
apparently
quite insane