Dogs 2014

IDIOT, FUCKFACE
(8/30/14)


a running
commentary
appraises
my every
action

my every
word

my every
thought

a reactive
diatribe
constantly opined
by my most
constant
critic

my most
determined
detractor

me

I utter
these self directed
disparaging remarks
throughout
the course
of each day

each night

each waking
and sometimes
dreaming
moment

some
would say
that it is quite
the negative
existence

but I like
to keep myself
in my place

the only
problem
is that with
age
I am much
more likely
to blurt out
those verbal
judgments
at inopportune
moments
in public

while
I
have become
conditioned
to my own
harsh opprobrium
others overhearing
may be shocked
if believing
such condemnations
were intended
for them

it could cause
a misunderstanding

a major
misunderstanding

although
having someone else
beat up on me
may
be a welcomed
relief

at least
until
my next time
in front
of a mirror

where
my audience
will be
captive
once again