Dogs 2014

FULL RETREAT
(8/7/14)


Brother Bollocks
hates
to fail

he had fully
committed
to this specter
of society
but fell
woefully short
of the expected
level
of participation

he had fulfilled
all
of the obvious
obligations

job

marriage

home ownership

on paper
he seemed
a screaming
success

in person
however
nothing
seemed right
about him

perhaps
it was because
Brother Bollocks
never believed
in what civilization
had
to offer

not even
as a child

others
seemed to detect
this false note
in his deportment

the looks
on their faces
showed
that they knew
he was ingenuous

his attention
always drifted

he perceived
some faint
haze
on the horizon
of this life
that felt
more real to him
than any
of his immediate
surroundings

now
after decades
of trying
to play
his part
he has decided
to physically
pull back
from
the crowd

withdraw
completely
from all
that his fellow
humans
consider normal

he would
focus
upon that mist
in periphery

an entity
that appeared
to hold
all of the answers
for him

Brother Bollocks
has chosen
self excommunication

he knows
that he'll never
be welcomed
back
by his peers

but
as he turns
his back
his face
is warmed
by the possibility
of a more
fulfilling future

the glow
spreads
with each step
and he finds
himself
really smiling
for the first
time
in his life