Dogs 2014

DUD
(7/8/14)


I walked
my usual
route
on this holiday
evening

on every
other block
it seemed
that there was
a yardful
of people

eating

drinking

laughing

fighting

talking quietly

then cringing
from the sound
of children
and adults
with their
fireworks

I looked
away
as I passed

but I heard
their noises

I smelled
their food

their explosions

trying
to remember
the last time
that I enjoyed
myself
in a group

probably before
I got sober

15 years?

I don't miss
the beer

I don't miss
the crowds

I don't even
miss
the couples

definitely
not the ones
that included
me

I'm
no fun
anymore

I'm told

but I smile
so much
more often