Dogs 2014

CHILDHOOD DREAM
(11/19/14)


they asked
me
in recovery
counseling
what my
long term goals
in life
might be

I asked
them
that if
I had truly
been insane
during all those
years
of drinking
how could I
answer
that question
after only
a few weeks
of sobriety?

how could
I suddenly know
what was sane?

what
was real?

they told me
that our earliest
aspirations
as children
were probably
the truest indicators
of the paths
that our lives
should take

I thought
back
to that semi-thoughtful
boy
who really didn't
want to be bothered
with the conventions
of society

even though
he felt doomed
to live them

no wonder
he became
a drunk

alone
I said

my long term
goal
is to be

and to be
left

alone

they nodded
their heads
and smiled

"one day
at a time"

they said

"keep
coming back"