Dogs 2013

SONLESS SON
(6/10/13)


one branch
of the family
name
ends
with me

until 40
I naturally
assumed
that eventually
a woman would
come along
ergo
children
or at least
child

past 40
I realized
that it would take
some effort
to provide
progeny
for hopeful
family members

at 48
a wife
finally appeared
but after just
a few months
of last ditch
breeding efforts
the prospect
was conceded
as a lost
cause

anyway
who wants
to be
a 60 year old
dad
going to Little
League games

teaming up
in three
legged
races

PTA

besides
my heart
just wasn't
in it

I always
had a problem
with lying
to children
and prevarication
seems part
and parcel
of parenting

it's for
their own
good

I know

ours
as well

but lying
is a luxury
I can no longer
afford

falsehoods
need to be reduced
in my future

not perpetuated

Father's Day
approaches
and I can't
imagine
filling
my parent's
role

raising
a son
who didn't
really believe
in anything
offered
as good
and acceptable

who didn't
genuinely care
about another
person
related
or not

a good
student
but a bad
learner

sorry
Dad

some
bloodlines
are meant
to end