Dogs 2013

SELF POTRAIT
(10/30/13)


I picture
myself
alone

in a dark
silent
room

just enough
natural light
filtering through
a window
to give me
definition

t-shirt
blue jeans
no shoes
or socks

seated
with elbows
on the arms
of a chair

head
tilted forward

thumbs
on cheeks

fingers
on forehead

as if
sadly supporting
some great
weight

the breathing
is shallow
punctuated sporadically
by deeply
exhaled
sighs

I know
that my burden
and my blessing
are the same
as every
other
living creature's

only circumstances
differ
between us

I never
see myself
out
in the sun

moving

animated

I always
assume
the same pose
of contemplation
and dejection

they
are my
nature

they
give me
meaning
and purpose

they are not
attractive
traits

but not
everyone
is meant
to be
the commander

the confessor

the clown

so you
are welcomed
to view
this presentation
then
move on

I cannot
miss those
whom I
never
knew
existed