Dogs 2013

NEVER SAY LIVE
(1/25/13)


so many
books

so many
movies

in which
the main
character
doesn't know
that they
are dying

or already
dead

they are
shown
plays of passing
to give them
a chance
to come
to some terms
with their
deaths

I enjoy
these
stories

I'm not
sure why

perhaps
it's due
to the fact
that my mother
wasted away
from brain
cancer

lapsing
in and out
of consciousness
for the last
few weeks
of her life

I would
like
to think
that her mind
was letting
her go
easy

contriving
alternative realities
in which
leaving
this world
was a life
ending
affirmation

I guess
that I'll never
know
for sure

unless
she shows
up again
so that
I can
ask

then
it won't
matter
if I'm sure
about
anything
or not