Dogs 2013

MARKING TIME
(6/12/13)


I move
from one
immediate
nuisance
to the next

my life
has dwindled
to the dread
of another
nagging
chore

staff meetings
shopping trips
dental appointments
even vacations
seem simply
more moments
to endure

I need
some space
in time

a comfortable
cushion
in which
nothing
is expected
of me

just
a day
or two

an open
schedule
with no people
places
or things
to intrude

I am just
so
damned
exhausted
from it all

yet
I realize
that it all
exists
due to my
actions

my inactions

I have
created
or permitted
to happen
this life
that I can
no longer
endure

if I
choose
to live differently
I shall be considered
a total asshole

or totally
insane

we are
not allowed
to step outside
these shared
routines
of misery
without some sort
of social
consequence

I would
hopefully
become
the complete
outcast
I have always
desired
to be

alone
on the road
of my diminishing
disillusion