Dogs 2013

FLIRTING WITH FAILURE
(11/29/13)


most
on the outside
would look
upon my life
as a slight
success

those
who have
known me
for any extended
period of time
would say
that I am
a poster child

a testament
to recovery

from lying
cheating
stealing
laziness
apathy

oh
and alcoholism

but
I know
better

I am only
where most
would be
without
those debilitating
detriments
to personal
choice

I cannot
congratulate myself
for working back
to zero

I have
nothing
to point to
and say

"here

this is what
I have done
with my life"

the only
things
that I have
are what I have
written
about my
shortcomings

I have
documented
my distress

at least
I have that

perhaps
I shall add
a parting
epithet
for a tombstone
or an urn

"he caused
neither death
nor life

was he
really here
at all?"