Dogs 2013

FEELING TOO GOOD
(1/9/13)


I feel
fantastic

heart racing
lungs pumping
muscles taut
in a post
workout
buzz

I don't
remember
if I've ever
felt
quite this
healthy
before

quite
this alive

I stand
here
in this
darkened room
connected
to the cosmos
as if all orbs
are tied
through me

this
insubstantial
structure

this precarious planet

all fall away
from the consciousness
and essentially disappear
in a phantasmal fog
as I reclaim
my place
in the universe

wait a minute

these are
the perceptions
that precluded
the determination
of my insanity

the drink
and the drugs
are gone

replaced
by good food
and exercise

still
the mind
seems incapable
of coping
with a bit
of physical
windfall

when
the chemicals
run wild
natural or not
the crazy
seems to run
with them

thankfully
the high
is short lived

I'll be
an aching
fairly sane
old man
again

all too
soon