Dogs 2013

EAT SHIT AND LIVE
(9/13/13)


I smile
but I have
nothing
to smile
about

I know
my part

I have
memorized
my lines

I hit
my spots
without
fail

but
I don't remember
auditioning
for this role

behind
this patina
of acceptability
I am a maniac
screaming
to flee the
stage

bolt
the building

run free
into the fields
and leave
this madness
behind

but always
someone
seems to be
blocking
my way

I hate
them

back
in the day
the Mongols
Vikings
and Old West gunslingers
would have speared
chopped
and shot themselves
through
over
and around
any annoying
human
obstructions

but we
are a civilized
lot

our tormentors
have no fear
of such extreme
reprisals

they are
worthless
and weak
yet protected
by the laws
that allow
them
to make
my life
so miserable

I must
stop
acting

pretending

wearing
this garish costume
of society

I should
leave it
all behind

wander
the desert
in search
of my hermit's
cave

then simply
exist
or die
exploring
my fundamental
nature

alone
in obscurity

but instead

here
I still
sit

smiling