Dogs 2013

CHANGE OF EXPRESSION
(11/27/13)


the act
comes difficult
for me

I am forced
to practice
each morning
in front
of the mirror

amusing
smiles

sympathetic
smiles

knowing
smiles

threatening
smiles

smiles
delivered
in silence
are the best

maybe
a nod
or shake
of the head

but
no sound

my face
hurts
from the
out of practice
exercise

there's
a fine balance
to be struck

mouth
open
a bit

but not
showing
too many
teeth

eyes
relaxed
but not
squinting

I don't want
to project
a lunatic

currently
my efforts
confuse those
who know me

where
are the frowns?

the expletives?

they are not
accustomed
to this new
reaction
reflected upon
my countenance

good

let them
wonder

perhaps
it will buy me
a few weeks
of transitional
space

I desperately
need
a new approach

my tried
and formerly true
methods
are failing me

I must
evolve
to survive

or at least
to survive
sanely

the smile
is a start

where it
takes me
I have not
a clue

I see you
coming
and begin
to curl my lips
in anticipation

possibly
one day
there will be
a handshake
or a hug

today
I smile

and hope
that the gods
of my making
will forgive
me