Dogs 2012

PARTING NOTE
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I hate
my life

I am
a white
employed
American
male
but still
I hate
my life

I am neither
fat
stupid
nor lazy

I have
access
to all
of the necessities

home
food
water

heat
in the winter

air conditioning
in the summer

a dependable
automobile
to get me
to and fro

still
I hate
my life

I know
that there
are people
in the world
even
in this country
who live
in tents
caves
and on the streets
with no plumbing
or easy access
to edibles

I know
that people
suffer
under the throes
of war
and tyranny

I don't
care

I hate
my life
anyway

that
is my privilege

when
I end up
dead
or institutionalized
depending upon how
the next
few
minutes
play out
they will
wonder

"he had everything!

why
would he want
to take
his own
life?

how
could he be
that miserable?

how
could he be
so selfish?

his poor
family!

they're starving
in Somalia
you know!"

either way
it will not
matter
to me

I'll be
out of it

no one
could've done
anything
to stop me

not
family
friends
professionals
or the fucking
President
of the United States
of America
could've helped

I hate
my life
and this
is what I'm
going to do
about it