A Poemdog

Dogs 2011

ONLY NUMBERS
(11/4/11)


bills
loans
mortgage
and now
refinancing
that mortgage
just
to keep
everything
afloat

net worth
declining quickly
sliding black
to red
with a
concurrent slippage
in serenity

I look up
from the paperwork
upon the desk
then out
the window
to watch
a squirrel
burying acorns
for the winter

that rodent
would not
understand
my distress

animal senses
would detect
nothing foreboding
concerning
my condition

"no danger
there"

he would
surmise

of course
his nuts
are safe
for the short
term

mine
are still
very much
in peril

if only upon
the spreadsheet
in my head

they're
only
numbers

only
numbers

numbers
only
clouding
my consciousness
with numbing
attrition

~

I
should go
outside
to dig
in the yard

to bury
my burden
if not
my savings

let
the neighbors
   and the
   squirrels
wonder