Dogs 2010

YULETIDE DELUGE
(12/21/10)


those
happy
home felt
heartwarmings
of the holidays
always
evaded me

I have
tried
and still try
on a select basis
to assume
the spirit
and grin
the idiot
joy mask

all
to no
avail

there are
too many
social and commercial
realities
to counter
the religious
overtones

as a child
I was a perfect
materialistic pod
and anticipated
the gift
getting
with glee

as a teenager
my nose
for Noel
took its
present
upward turn

for eight
Christmases
in the service
being the single
sailor
I took
the duty
of married shipmates
so that they
could be
with their
families

I did not
know
what would constitute
a more appropriate
act
in the Christian
tradition

after
my discharge
I attempted
to minimize
my participation
in social
familial
and relational
celebratory
nonsense
of the season

when I
finally married
I fortunately found
a suitable mate
with similar
doubting tendencies
and we travel
together
through the holiday
doubly braced
against
spectacular tides
from every quarter
encroaching
upon our
muted shores
of personal
spirituality

December 25th
we will wake
kiss
and wish
each other
a Merry Christmas
with a smile

then we will
both
make our requisite
restroom runs
to ready ourselves
for yet
another
day