Dogs 2010

STINKY
(7/29/10)


all
those years
of coming to
at the last
miserable
minute

in a
hangover rush
trying desperately
to get it together
for school
job
or family

no time
to bathe
just throw on
clothes
slick the hair
and run
out the
door

"do you not
have
a shower?"

"you smell
like a
brewery!"

"did you fall
in an
outhouse?"

never
a moment
to breathe
with drinking
consuming
almost every
waking thought

it seemed
a full life

when
I considered
quitting
I could not
conceive
of what
I would do
with all
those empty
hours

10 years
sober
I have learned
what busy
can be

always
a list
in my head
of at least
a dozen things
to be done

now
it seems
as if I barely
have a spare second
in which
to wipe
my ass

not
the smell
of success
that I
expected