Dogs 2010

STERILE SEED
(5/1/10)


difficult
for me
to comprehend

she sees
her son
as all colors
of the universes
a glow
which she feels
no matter
his location

I see him
as ones
zeros
and a reflection
of my own missed
opportunities
of youth

my simplistic
straightforward
dispassionate opinions
of his tribulations
are mostly
ignored

they
are not imbued
with the multitude
of hues
painted by
maternal emotions

I try
to remember
my own mother's eyes
as she saw me
trial and error
through life
immune
to suggestion

however
I cannot walk
through that
long dead
looking glass
for a clue
to today

I smile
and shake
my head
giving hugs
when indicated

I understand
that I shall
never
understand

sex
for me
was always
pleasure
and disease

making love
to her
created
wonder
and infinity

she watches
her future
walk out
of the door
while holding
my hand

there will
always
be tears