Dogs 2010

RECELEBRATION
(10/2/10)


after
my mother
died
10 years ago
there was
really
no reason
to mark
my birthday

no family
within 400 miles
to make
a personal
fuss

a card
and a call
from my dad
and an email
from my
sister
were quite
enough
each year

no one locally
except for a few
transient girlfriends
ever knew
about it

I certainly
wasn't telling

now
not only
am I married
but my stepson's
birthday falls
on the same
date as mine

cakes
people
dinners
presents
are all back
with a vengeance

I miss
being able
to just look
at the calendar

do the math

then get on
with the day

I think
that after
this year
I will tell
my wife
the same thing
that I told Mom
when I was
twelve
or so

"I don't
want to play
birthday
anymore"

I didn't
get it
then

no revelation
has changed
my now