Dogs 2010

PERSPECTIVES
(6/28/10)


strange
schedule
for the
week

Monday
long workday
visit boss
in hospital
afterward

Tuesday
more work
boss's
brain surgery

Wednesday
more work
my wife's
40th birthday

Thursday
scheduled
new product
release
at work
then trip
out of town
to celebrate
wife's
birthday

Friday
back
to town
late

Saturday
back
at work
in order
to take stock
of it all

Sunday
Indedpendence
Day

a weird
collection
of circumstances
forthcoming

along
with flashbacks
from eleven
years ago

Mom's
brain surgery
in July 1999

my
40th birthday
A few months
later

big changes
at work
(same job
same boss
as I have
now)

Mom
after the operation
after the radiation
understandably
forgetting
my 40th

not living
to see
my 41st

now
my wife
my boss's wife
our employees
all wonder why
I'm not a bit
more excited
about the
near term
events

they think
that I
should be making
a bigger deal
about any
or all
of it

I want
to tell them
that ten years
from now
the ones
who are left
will look back
on this week
and wonder
what all
the fuss
was about

we live
we worry
we celebrate
we mourn
we die
and things
stay mostly
the same

it is
simply
a matter
of calmly
taking care
of what
is necessary
and doable
today

over the top
emotions
only change
the emotions
of others

not
the facts

unfortunately
such explanations
only lead
to head shaking
and aspersions
of shame

I shall
silently do
what needs
to be done
and leave
the histrionics
and the guilt
to those
better
qualified

I sleep
very well
at night