Dogs 2010

MONTHLY MANIC DEPRESSION
(4/20/10)


"I hate
feeling like
this

I don't
want to do
anything

I hate
work

I hate
the people
there

I hate
living
here

I hate
not having
as much time
to spend with
my mom
my son
and you

shit

I could
go on
and on"

I try
to finish
brushing
my teeth

I don't know
what to say
to her

I felt
like that
for years

I had
to feel
fairly bad
before
I began
to feel
good
again

I finally
had to let go
of the ideas
that kept me
so fucking
miserable

we all
have to die
just a little
in order
to live

then
I see
the blood
in the toilet
and realize
that she
has died
her little death
today

not knowing
what else
to do
I flush

damned
hormones