Dogs 2010

HARD FOR THE GUARD
(3/12/10)


head down
I keep
clicking away
at this
keyboard

I eat lunch
at my
desk

I take
my first break
away from the office
at 3pm or so
after 8 hours
at it

I'll walk
outside
to hopefully
refocus my eyes
beyond the 3 feet
usually between
my face
and my monitor

I'll then
go back in
for another
two and a half
or three
hours

I deal
with data
emails
and phone calls
from around
the world
across languages
and time zones

I feel
connected
somehow
to the same degree
that I feel detached
during my off hours
away from work

nobody else
here
seems to sense
that connection

they think me
rather odd

my wife
simply thinks
me stupid
due to diminishing returns
in her estimation
from increased hours
in relation
to everyone else
driving a desk
here

I claim
no credit
only obsession
wanting to crank out
as much activity
as possible
during my
waking hours

after
a quarter century
of wasting time
in bars
nightclubs
backyards
garages
and other
various venues
of alcoholic
consumption
I still feel
that I am a bit
behind
the productivity
curve

I don't know
when that mania
will change

perhaps
when my health
or the business
fails

perhaps
when my wife
leaves

perhaps only
when my career
is complete
and the
Cremation Society
collects
my final
report