Dogs 2010

FROM THE MOUTHS OF STRANGERS
(12/2/10)


everyone
I had ever
cared about
or respected
told me
at one time
or another
the truth
of my sickness

but
my sickness
knew better

24 years
of good advice
well meaning admonishments
and strict warnings
went unheeded
as I picked
up speed
on my suicide run
toward the
great wall
of self

oh
I heard
you

every
one
of you

but the
roar
from the winds
of my insanity
rendered
your relationally
whispered
wisdom
inconsequential

finally
in a roomful
of storm survivors
a silence descended
that I had never
known before
allowing me
to understand
what you
had been telling
me
all along

so
when I speak
in front of you
now
in such
glowing terms
of the same words
that you used
so many times
before
please
do not
be offended

know
that I had to hear
the message
within
the dialogue
of my
disease

I truly
value
all of your
past attempts
but you never
had a chance
to save
me

as I
have
no chance
of saving
my loved one
from the terrible
tornado
of his own
current
destruction

I pray
in my own
way
hoping
that his roomful
of survivors
is coming
soon