Dogs 2010

EMPATHECTOMY
(9/21/10)


she
has an acquaintance
dying of cancer
and wants
to know
how I
would feel
if we were
in the same position
as that couple

it would suck
I guess
I tell her

she
doesn't seem
too happy
with my
response

I expect
that she wants me
to be teary eyed
at the thought
of one of us
losing
the other

I would like
to think
that we
would grieve
yes

but
she knows
that my
mother
died in my arms
from brain
cancer

she never
seems to remember
me telling her
that I did not
shed a tear

years
of isolation
and sickness
had buffered me
from the usual
emotions

"everyone
dies alone"

I have heard
and read
many times

watching
Mom die
I know
that this
is true

you
can only
go so far down
with someone
else

not
all
the
way
down
into a solitude
so deeply rooted
that even death
cannot disturb
its entrenchment

we are
one again
until together
with whatever
creator
there
may
be

then
I'll cry