Dogs 2010

BULBS OF GUILT
(2/18/10)


its
her birthday
today

96
years
old

she will
basically
celebrate
alone

family
so far flung
and of course
too damn busy
to be with her
on her
special day

I used
to drive up
every year
to her eastern
Nebraska home
(still on her own)
to visit
and to take her
for the quick burger
that she always
craves

I was
single then
and the job
was a bit
more stable

now
any trip
beyond
the 5 mile excursion
from work
to home
cuts into
eating
and sleeping time

so many
perceived
obligations
of today

this year
I sent her
a hyacinth
starter kit
to give her
some hope of Spring
during the long days
of winter gray

blind
this old
farmer's wife
still likes
to watch
things grow

little consolation
for a lady
who has outlived
her contemporaries
and will wonder aloud
to anyone listening
why
she is still
here

I shall
call her
when I get home
tonight
knowing that
her first question
will be
when
am I coming
to see her

soon
Grandma
soon