Dogs 2010

BORROWED PASTS
(6/23/10)


after
50 years
of books
music
movies
stories heard
stories told
and dreams

so many
wild
vivid
dreams

it becomes
quite difficult
to separate
memories
of actual events
from artifice
and hallucination

so many
scenarios
not of my making
are lodged
in my mind
that I must
qualify
so many
statements
of previous
certitude
with

"or I may have just"

seen
heard
dreamt
the recollection
from a source
only vaguely
familiar
to me

my utterances
slow these days
not due
to decelerated
brain activity
but rather
to the accelerated
activity of crosschecking
half a century
of fictions
before I hazard
an expression
that I claim
as original

even
my explanation
of such a phenomenon
appears trite
and well
worn

I would
credit this
to someone

anyone

if I only
remembered
their
name