Dogs 2010

ASYLUM
(3/15/10)


strapped down
pilled up
and punctured
they wheel me
into admitting

the last thing
that I remember
from before
was driving
in the snow

later
ambulatory
I wander
from room
to room
trying to find
some order
or recognizable
plan

the others
crowd about me
saying
that I need
to make a room
for myself
and lead me
to a small
internal warehouse
cluttered with
furniture
lamps
rugs
and other
habits
of habitation

I do
my best
to fill
my assigned
four walls

meals
and medication
are brought
by unseen staff
leaving the patients
to determine
our own
therapy

radios
puzzles
romance
Boston Terriers
a cacophony of clutter
bizarre conversations
and vignettes
rule the day

finally
I am outside
the crowded confines
apparently unsupervised
walking along
a river park
nodding normally
to the passing
pedestrians

I return
to the facility
knowing no other
place
to go

a phone
appears
a phone rings
I answer
the phone
and the nurse asks
if some woman
can go out
on a date

sure
why not?

I say

my answer
seems to please
everyone
and there are
smiles
all around

I feel
so much better
but realize
that I will
never
leave

I am
needed
here